Good bye August ….

See what I did there? Hey! 
Its officially a warm welcome to September! and this makes me happy because one of my favourite seasons of the year is now on its way! Thats right! Autumn. 
I can’t wait to go for walks in the park surrounded by all those warm browny orange colours. The sound of leaves that have fallen crunching beneath your feet, and the smell. Is it weird to say I absolutely LOVE the smell of autumn? 
Plus as its the very beginning of the month its time for fresh new monthly goals
So I thought I would share a few of my goals for this month….
♥Be more positive and focus on getting over this illness crap once and for all. 
♥ Find some time to actually read a book!
♥Blog & Network more
♥Get through my interview successfully! 
♥Take new steps towards my happiness goal and to the life I wanna live. 

My open love letter…

Baby Girl,

I hold on to the moment I fell in love with you with my heart everyday, that memory is the specialist memory I hold.
At times our life, it has been hard. Harder then it should be, we sit and dream of the time to come when our moment comes and the freedom we fantasise of becomes ours.
We look back to the past and remember the times we’ve gone through. Not always good. But neither of us can deny that we shared special memories and magical sparkle moments. As the years have gone by we have changed in so many ways.
I know the pain we share now is my fault. I’ve made some choices that I regret, and yet there is no real way that I can apologise, because I am sorry is not enough. Ive been a fool at times, a gullable
I hold on to the feeling of one day, not because I am not ready, and no. Im not scared.
Sometimes I just can’t help but watch you, not in a weird way, but because I just cane help myself, I see such a beautiful loving girl, one that doesn’t even know her own value.
It breaks my heart to see your pain. You don’t deserve what you go through. The way you are treated by others. You are a person..
You are always there for me, your smile, your words, your kind heart. What did I ever do to deserve someone like you?
Our first kiss still stays in my thoughts, the shivers that ran down my back. It was a surprise that I had longed for, but in reality was so much more then I could of knew. It was as if you could read my mind.
The moments we share, they to me are magical, even the discreet ones. We don’t just make moments that we know that we will keep, photo ready we always do that. We make memories.
I know at times I can look at you and I just know you can read my thoughts, I see you looking back and your eyes, your beautiful eyes, they tell me things. I know you can read mine too.

If I could do just one thing for you, that would be to keep my promise, a promise I made the very first day….
….I will not let you down.


Getting back to normality… Almost!

After 2 long weeks of being a very poorly sparkle, I returned back to work today! Im not gonna lie, I Was soooo excited to finally be returning to something somewhat normal ?
This morning I got up, with a positive vibe, put on my tights and and skirt, and a blouse I’d been avoiding wearing with confidence! to then hurry down stairs to put on the coffee and do my make up. My favourite younique bits, and a straighten of my hair and I felt Buzzing! 
Im not gonna lie, I am shattered, it was a bit of a struggle to concentrate, and although I feel positive Im like 98% … Which is pretty good going! 
Work made me feel very missed with so many people giving me hugs and asking if I was alright. ? 

To end a lovely day, we’ve been on a nice walk with the doggies, which has really made me feel the positive vibes even more so! 
So Anyway, That was my day! 
I must say I am feeling the positive vibes! alot of planning and organisation and boss babe-ing to follow! 

Hello Project Life!!!

I couldn’t resist when I discovered this form of simple scrapbooking. Project life is my current addictive hobby that I am loving. Simple walleted album pages, with slots for these cute little card things, some have simple pictures and quotes, others just give me a space for journalling. 
So Ive began putting a few of my favourite photos in with some of the cards…. 
And I treated my self too this expensive folder and my card collection is already growing 😉 
Now Im even more inspired to take photos every day! 

Simplicity wins all

Some things in life are just, simple. but its the simple things that people do and say that really matter to us.

This is Uni, He’s my teddy! yep 25 and he’s in my bed with me every night. He was brought for me to give me cuddles, and he does an amazing job. I love coming into my room to find that he’s been tucked into bed for me waiting for me to come lay next to.
Stuff like this really does make me smile.


Today has been a special day for the memory board. or the scrapbook ;).

My little brother… Or shall I say not so little, graduated from Uni.
So needless to say I have had the proud big sister emotions like crazy mad today. The day started off slow, as I excitedly got ready to go out. Was really nice to get dressed up for what felt like the first time in ages.
When we met the rest of the famalam in town I could of cried when I first saw Matty all dressed up in his graduation gown. Me, Nan, and his GF was supposed to have to watch the ceremony on screens, but we go lucky and managed to get seats in the guild hall to watch the ceremony. The atmosphere everywhere was so unique. I go through this part of town every day to get to work, but today was different. The pleasant atmosphere of smiles and proud families all around us.
Matt was 4th up on to the stage, which meant we then sat through a very long wait of a lot of clapping and tired arms afterwards.
One thing I do have to mention. A boys name who appears to have passed this year. When his name was called, his mum stood on stage in his memory, every student stood. It was a beautiful applause for someone who I may not know, but obviously had touched so many.

After the ceremony we had photos taken in the park together with Matt and then headed for a family meal to remember. we went to the steak art house in ocean village. A bill that I don’t think my dad will ever forget lol.

All you need is… L.O.V.E…?

I guarantee I am not the only one thats at fault of being a fan of those mushy romantic films, that bring tears to your eyes. The ones that on a sad day, you sit with your softest blankie, nice fresh cosy pyjamas, a cup off coffee (or maybe even a hot chocolate with some marshmallows floating on top), Not forgetting the box of tissues because lets face it, by the end of the film Im crying because their happy. Happiness is a key word.
Theres all sorts of forms of love, how you give your mum a cuddle and say love you. she’s your mum. mums are super heroes in disguise don’t forget, or any family member for that matter… nans, dads, brothers & sisters, the lot.
moving on, the love for your friends. Your best friend thats always there for you. The one that accepts you for your quirky weirdness.
And now we get on to the mushy one, Romance. Your romantic lover. or what ever you choose to call them.
Its funny cause I was sat on a bus not long ago when a group of school girls got on chatting away, it was hard not to listen, I mean they were like mini mean girls. 3 of them pestering the other about a boy, one from school I’m guessing. coming out with phrases “are you going to ask him out” and the big one “do you love him” … It really made me giggle. Im not actually dissing them. Its real sweet. Not something I actually remember myself. I was a weird child looking back.

Ive always been one of those girls who dreams of fairy tales, the fact is, and I am being truthful here, Ive always been miles away from it.
When you feel love you know it, your know what the true meaning of being in love is. because you WILL feel it in your stomach, I remember my mum, on countless occasions telling me long nostalgic stories of how she met my dad and knew straight away. Its actually an amazing story. All to do with a chicken. errr yeah 🙂
The minute I fell in love, I knew. It was a feeling so strong of belonging.
I must sound so cheesy by now? and at this point your probably thinking get on with it you mindless blogger, wheres the point?
Not ALL love is a walk in the park. I am terrified that through bad choices, and making mistakes I will loose the one person that really matters to me.
They look at me and I feel under their spell. Their touch sends shivers down my spine, and their heart…. Their kind heart sends my head swirling.
Love isn’t about money, presents or games, its about happiness, belonging, freedom to be yourself. when you find that person, don’t ever let them go. because some things are damaging to the heart mind and soul.