How being ill effects mental health

I would generally describe my personality as a goal getter, as a bubbly one, as a person who tries to carry on no matter what, I am always setting new goals and striving to be the best me I can, even when I feel down and panic. That was until the last few months, this really has not been easy. I wanted to share how being ill and having chronic pain has taken a toll on me and my mind. So this is not going to be one of my usual positive posts! because sometimes it doesn’t matter how much energy you put into a feel-good attitude it doesn’t always work as well as I would like it too.

2 months ago I thought I had a bug. that’s it, I remember phoning into work that morning feeling like I almost had a hangover without even touching a drop of drink. My stomach had started hurting and I was being sick constantly. But after a few days of constant pain and feeling rubbish, led to a trip to the hospital. It is now nearly May, and I have been off work the whole time. I feel chronically bored as well as poorly.

I have suffered from bad anxiety over the past few years but the last 2 months have been so much worse, I’m constantly worrying about myself, about my job, about what people are thinking of me, how I look, everything. It is really easy for myself to forget how to breathe and be calm. I am so good at getting myself in a tizzy, but then again it wouldn’t even be me if I wasn’t stressing over something.
It feels as if being ill has caused a spiral of mental health issues getting worse, and then it leads to what did I ever do to deserve this? Hmm.
Ironically the joke of a voodoo doll that may be somewhere is becoming more and less of a joke! I think I better do some research into that hey!

We are very lucky in this country to have such an amazing NHS that we don’t even pay for, but I do wish they would be able to sort me out a lot quicker! There is so much waiting involved when your undergoing investigation for something being wrong with you. The waiting is the draining part. I feel so emotionally drained. I suppose they call it a patient for a reason hey?

My energy is poor, my concentration is pretty non existant, and as for enthusiasm, well there is none.

There are plenty of good things in the works for the future and I know that so it is nothing to do with my life or lifestyle, it genuinely is about the constant illness and chronic pain that is making me so much worse. Anxiety is a major ware on someone, and I really do wish that others would also understand how just because someone can look OK, does not mean their mental health is.

Thinking about the ’90s

I was born in 1992, therefore I am a 90s Child and the ’90s were the best, so when I found this on thesmurfygamersblog and literally within minutes I was remanicing, I knew I needed to do a similar post, this tag is because I still love the ’90s now!

So here are the questions! and they are fab!

1. Favorite Disney Film?

Seriously? Im not sure I can answer this question, Only because I love all disney films and characters so it is impossible for me to pick!

2. Favorite Music Artist?

Ok it has to be the spice girls! They were still at the top as I was growing up! and I loved all their songs! I even still own their video somewhere at the parents house.

3. Favorite Sweets?

My Favourite sweets was Rainbow Drops, those little colourful almost like rice crispie things.

4. Favorite Game? ( Board game/school game)

Buckaroooooooo!

5. Favorite McDonald’s ‘Happy Meal’ Toy?

The TY bears, all the different animals you could get, I had a mini lobster for ages in my school backpack!

6. Favorite Book?

This is a toss between the Tracy beaker series and The Princess Diaries books.

7. Favorite Clothing Store?

GAP

8. Favorite TV Show?

Sabrina The Teenage Witch!

9. What Show Would You Watch After School?

All of CBBC. Goosebumps!

10. What was Your Favorite 90s Game Show?

I actually don’t think I had one?

11. Did You Own A Virtual Pet?

Yes! of course, who didn’t have a Tamagotchi as a kid?

12. Favorite Video Game And System To Play On?

I didn’t really play many video games/systems! But I did have the Pokemon Pikachu edition of the Game Boy Colour!

13. Weirdest Fashion Trend? 

those colourful bands, that had a million silly meanings, that no one really cared about. They were just pretty, lets face it.

14. Favorite Toy?

My Betty Spaghetti collection, and Polly Pockets!

15. Favorite Nickelodeon Show?

Rugrats!!… and it still is!

I could write so much more that I loved about the ’90s, Like Groovy Chick bedding, mood rings, and Kennan and Kel runs.

What do you guys remember about the ’90s? What were your favourite things?

7 must have apps for bloggers

Generally,  we spend so much time using our mobile phones. Phones are not just phones anymore, they are more like mini personal assistants. As a blogger, if we are not tied to the computer the chances are we’re steaming from the iPad or phone, or maybe that is just me?  Whether it is checking social media, reading through a million emails,  which I as a person can be quite bad at doing, It is probable that it is blog related in some form. 

So what apps are best for blogging? Well, these are my top 7 personal preference, these apps I connect to me promoting and building my blog. 

Canava

This had to be my first mention, because Canava has literally become my favourite app for making blog graphics and logos! I also find it useful for some of my other hobbies (I’ve recently been using Canava to make labels for penpaling) Canava is great and has a wide range of stock photos that you can use and include on your blog, and their is a free version. It is deffintly worth checking this one out.

Twitter

Have I mentioned how much I have fallen in love with Twitter recently? I use this alot more then I do facebook, and I have met so many friends and learnt so much through the blogging community just by being on twitter. not only the massive community and support that being on twitter has given me though, Twitter is great for promoting your work.

This graphic also made on Canva!

BlogLovin

I am still a new user to Blog Lovin! but I am loving this more and more everyday!

Pinterest

I am often saying ‘Pinterest is life’ Im constantly inspired by others, and I am able to share my own pins promoting my ideas with links to my blog, Its a social platform heaven. I would suggest to any new blogger to take a look into pinterest in a heartbeat.

WordPress

Depending on your blogger platform you should definitely have your blogging app installed to your devices, this will keep you up to date with your blog constantly, and does not really need a big explanation for being a top app.

OneNote

When I do not have one of my many note books to score down my thoughts and blog ideas for later, Im using OneNote? Now Why would someone who owns a million notebooks need a digital one?
I have One Note installed on all devices, I keep digital back ups of most of my notes, and I always try to use One Note when Im out somewhere where I don’t have access to a pen and paper, After all you never know when your gonna have a brain wave. If your not a massive stationary fan, then you definitely need to consider OneNote for blog planning.

Hoote Suite

Finally Hoote Suite, This is a great app for scheduling content to multiple social media accounts. I’m also a fan of the calendar view that this app had to show when your posts are scheduled for!

What apps do you use to keep your blog on its toes?

10 reasons to love April

Since I have been feeling really down with the constant illness and chronic pain lately, I thought it was about time to give some reasons to feel a bit happier, so today I am an irritated girl who is trying to be a little bit more positive this month!
Admittedly it has been a really rubbish time, and it feels like our main adventures out lately are to hospitals and DR’s surgeries until we find out 100% what the heck is up with me… Anyway, I am not moaning I am being positive and since we are still at the beginning of April (pretty much anyway) I wanted to share with you guys 10 reasons why you should appreciate this fabulous month!

Summer is just around the corner!

Fresh start month – I am not 100% sure why, but I have always thought of April as a month of fresh starts, apparently, I am not the only one. we are now 4 months clear of the Christmas season and its a few months of enjoying the sun and the happy season before we prepare for cold winter months again! The first day of spring has now been and its time for a spring clean, mentally aswell.

It’s April Showers – I’m not saying that the fact it is raining a lot is amazing but, does anyone else get the drip, drip drop little April showers song go through their head constantly this month? I do! it is stuck in my head all month every time I hear someone say ‘Oh it’s raining again, April Showers’ … I must watch Bambi. I love Bambi.

The month of yellow – I literally think that one of the first things I associate April with is the colour yellow, and I am really loving this colour right now! The month of yellow, and the month of Daffodils (see what I am saying there?).

Pastels – Ok I may have already mentioned colour just now but this bit is slightly different, I love all pastel colours and there are so many new things in pastel! which I always love pastel colours! Easter spills lots of this because pastel colours do feel very springy! 🙂

Nature is coming back out – The cold winter months will soon be behind us, and already this month we have had some beautiful sunshine filled days. I have especially noticed that on the farm the wildlife is all coming out of its hiding and the deers are back running around the fields at dusk. I absoloutely love playing spot the deer.
It is not just the animals either. I LOVE blossom tree’s, and they always start blossoming this month, they make me super happy.

So Pretty!

New financial year – When life gives you lemons, make lemondae. For some people, I’ve noticed a lot of chat how April is a big money month for them, so everything is a little bit tighter! I know that this is the same for us this month! but oh well. April is the start of the new financial year, so let’s use this as a positive? New year 😉 New me kinda thing.

The clocks went forward – YES! at the end of March, our clocks went forward! now If you love summer like me its more exciting that we are gaining light and sunset is getting later, rather then thinking you lost an hour sleep that night!

Sunset on the farm

Its Chocoholic heaven – It is so hard to say no to some chocolate in April as its nearly Easter, be it a little late this year. Pretty hard to resist when you are going to slimming world! so far we’ve been pretty good! but I can not wait to get my hands on a chocolate egg!

The Sun is coming – Slowly but surely the summer period is just around the corner, and OK so we are not in summer yet! and already I have said why are people wearing shorts already? Its hardly boiling, but the sun is out, the sky is bright and peoples moods are lifting. I love this time of year when you are slowly saying goodbye woolly jumper.

Happiness – Last but not least one thing I love about April is no matter what is going on, or how rubbish and down you are feeling, April seems to bring in some happiness to the year no matter what.

What do you love about April? I would love to hear what makes you smile this month?

My Sugar & Sloth package arrived!

Does anyone else get super excited when your orders finally arrive? I am literally like a little kid that’s on a sugar rush when I know that the postie is bringing me something good. I had only been waiting a few days but I was super excited when my big box came, from Sugar & Sloth I ordered a mug, a Notebook and a Mystery box from Sugar & Sloth and I am so glad that I did…

So the best part of any parcel is the unwrapping! this box did not let me down and kept me excited as I opened to see the contents. I literally love the effort that seems to go into packing my order up from the seller, Anita Perry. I would definitely suggest following her on Instagram as well here.
The box was filled with confeti, and included a sticker and a postcard with details of the store. Nice touch.

I love how each item has so much personality! and they definitely suit my personality! The store sells Bright, colourful, cute, and unique mugs, pins, jewellery and clothes, as well as other stuff. U

Inside the mystery box which you can buy for £12 online on her store, includes an enamel pin, and a mug which you can either choose the sweary or non-sweary kind (a pretty good idea that). I don’t have a cat, and this the mug was from the mystery box! so I probably would not have picked this one myself, BUT that being said I do wish that I had a fuckton of cats so it is still a suitable mug for me! Not to mention that it is super cute!

I literally couldn’t pick my favourite item from this order if I tried! I really love the enamel pin, and It will so be going on my notice board with my seemingly growing collection on pins that we have. Stationary and mugs all in one place though? Seriously very cool items.
I especially love the Anxiety mug and notebook. I really think I need a pet Gnarl whale in my life as it is.

I can’t wait to see what Sugar and Sloth bring out in the future! I will definitely be ordering again and soon.

Do you have a favourite shop that you love to order from? where would you suggest getting a mysetry box from?

What I’ve learnt about blogging… So FAR.

I remember, I first started creating blog content years ago, and it was kinda this thing that I would start, stop, start and stop, and really this never went anywhere. I then started looking at other blogs and then I got so inspired, that was it, I wanted to start my own fully functioning working blog and it would work! … that was the plan and I am still working on it to this day! When I started this blog, it was a step up from the times before, I don’t actually think I realized how big of a world I was really stepping foot into. (and no I do not mean that negatively!) The addiction to blogging, The social community of bloggers, the world I was entering into, and how amazing having a blog could be. How Having a blog, has changed me, because it has. Since I started blogging, I have come across new opportunities, met new people and really opened up a massive door to enjoying a new aspect of me.

Blogging is not easy, and its not an all bliss world. So I wanted to share with you guys how much I have learnt, and what so far!

src: google images

The blogging community is massive – There is so many people out there in the world, and so many others that you can meet and become friends with. Each friend I have made from blogging has been amazing and so supportive.

Blogging is hard work – Ok so if you are thinking about starting off a blog, please do not get under the impression that its gonna be a hit success on day 1, that doesn’t really happen. Your blog is only as successful as you make it, and to make your blog really work, you need to put as much time and effort into your work as possible! I wouldn’t give up on the down days though I’ve found that at times it’s so tempting to give up! but if you give up on your dreams, they don’t happen.

Planning is important – If you are like me keeping a blog plan is important. Planning means you are able to keep up to date, remember important dates and tasks. Planning is a great way of keeping your blog going. especially when it comes to sharing your blog and gaining engagement.

You can end up thinking about your blog 24/7 – Literally, Once you start writing a blog you can end up thinking of your work constantly! It is like a full addiction, a massive passion and becomes a massive part of your life.
Now I am not just talking about the next time your gonna get to tap your fingers on the keyboard and make the next post for your readers, the more you get into your blog, the more you begin to put in, money, sweat, and tears. It is not just about the content at all, its the sharing and promoting, preparation and care.

Research is so important – I am a passionate learner! Literally. I love to learn new things, I love to be inspired by others, so that being said it probably goes in my favour when it comes to my blogging life. I’m constantly reading others blogs, pinteresting and reading about blogging, and learning off other bloggers. There is a serious legal side to some things, and I have read about how some have got themselves in trouble by doing certain things. By doing my research into what I am doing and taking interest in the other bloggers around the world, I am teaching myself more and more everyday.

Images are a pretty big deal– Although words are a massive part of blogging of course! Images are just important, and you wanna have decent images at that. There are hundreds of stock images sites, that allow you to use their images for free.
But taking your own images is fun, gives your blog a unique creative twist, and definitely gives it that personal touch of your personality.

Canava is a great app for images!

Security and Backups – If you’ve read my previous posts, you may have been reading when I nearly lost my blog. Oh my GOD. My biggest blogging Fail (you can read that here) That day was awful. I had been having a downtime and not been checking my dashboard, my site had been attacked and taken over with a virus, I don’t know what it was but I never even knew a website could be attacked with such things till that day, and so straight away I learnt the importance of backing up your work! Every single month!

Scheduling posts is a blogging GOD – When I am feeling particularly creative and inspired one day I am able to write a couple of blog posts in a few hours, and schedule them to come out online at different times. which is such a good thing as I can organize my blog better then I can organize myself sometimes?

It’s a competitive world – Have you ever heard the phrase its a dog eat dog world? hmm? I suppose a bloggers world is the same, in some ways! Each blogger has very similar goals to yours! you need to try and remember that! because you should never let a negative hit put you down on your own work!

Is there anything you have learnt since you started a blog? Like I mentioned earlier! I love to learn off others! so leave me a comment below with something you have learnt 🙂